I chickened, wimped out :'(

Giraffe touched me on my back and around my waist, he patted my head, and thats it. i met him in the lunch room,he ate a pizz in less than 1 minute!!! O.O i just cam to myfriends table( wich was were he was eating) , i trund around to see if another freind of mine was their, then i look bck and i see that he was on his last bite!!! O.O i told him he eats really REALLY fast and he said he was hungry. in gym, R pushed me to were giraffe was standing, i was really tired and not in the mood so i just sat down and hid myslf, then giraffe went and sat nex to me and patted my back, then he stand up and started patting my head, i got up couse the teacher told me too, at the end i left R b/c i had to go outside early, wen i got outside, giraffe was their, i was just in time, the door was open so we left, i was going to tell him but their was people around, so i waited, then once i got hi alone( wich was outside RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIS BUS) he left T_T i really wanted to tell him , so i said wait in a low sad voice and he turned around, he HEARD me, and i was going to tell him but i was to sad and he was already in the bus and he swiped allready, so isai never mind , i was so sad, and on top of that, it was raining , it was fine, b/c it hid my face from crying. wen i was on the bus, Roen was their, a classmate from 8th grade, it was one after another wer  i met some old friends of mine , everyone seemed to hv been going to same bus as me, we started talking until it was my stop. it was still raining so then i decided i should put on my sweater. i was still so sad. once i got home, i went strait to FB and my best friend and J was their, my best friend said she hd to go to PTC so she left. so J was left, he started talking to me and we kept on talking, he gave me some good advice, he even posted a pic to show me how he looks like,but i promised my little bro to play with him, so i hd to leave. im going to try to tell him 2morrow, and i hope J's advice works . wish me luck,... whoever is reading this, but i bet not........................................... i feel as if my best friend has no time 4 me now, shes always leaving me, and if u sayd hat ur srry couse of watever , i know i knowi know your doing watever, and if u say that ur not, ... u r!!! u definitle R!!! ( im srry, im just not in the mood ok) >:(