H.O.T. Day Today -__-

When i woke up this morning, i was sweating soo much -_- went for a walk with my mom: walked my dog around the block, dropped him home, then walked to the 99cent store and took the long way back. i was sweating so much too. then i did some exercise with her. For lunch, i had beef? omelette, rice, and dumplings >w< i like dumplings. i cleaned the house (wash the dishes, vacuum the house) wile my mom did her nails. took a long cold shower. got ready for my bro's graduation. wanted to wear normal clothes but my mom insisted on wearing a dress, i didnt have one so i borrowed hers. -__- it was sumwut uncomfortable to wear... she said one of the girl sounded like a chimpmuck >.< hahaha. then we went to queens mall to eat at steackhouse or sumthing like that for my bros dinner. it was good... fatening though... went shoping for a bit and my favorite grandma bought my shorts. wen home and its sooo hot -__- i want the ac to be on -__-

Another Speech -_-

i guess my mom had been telling about wut shes so... bothered by to my aunt cuz she just came out of nowhere and gave me a long talk on how its dangerous to be out, that theirs alot of crazy people out their that can kidnap me or kill me, that i should tell my mom were im going and with whom, etc. 

... but now that i think of it,... i guess its true... its such a simple thing and yet i dont do it -__- this is my faul, im the one in the wrong, im wrong... -__-

Fun Day Today ^v^

Took the Living enviroment regents today. it... was... okay, i guess, the algebra regents was even harder for me, so yea... >w< went to Flippy's house and took the GREATEST nap ever in my life so far haha ^v^ I walked my dog for about 2 hours >_< haha, i was talking to a friend wile that happened, walking my dog was just an excuse to get out of the house haha xP poor Maxie thou, he was sooooooo tired, panting really hard, walking for so long in the hot in all the fur for 2 hours, sorry sorrry :( brought him back then walked my friend home, i was suppose to just go half, but we met some old friends on the way, and got distracted by the birds haha >w< it was fun, im so tired, but that was good exercise :3
HaHa im grounded but i still went out >_< i mean, im already out so y go back home? ... wutever
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... still not happy that Flippy read my blog... but wutever... its worse bc i dont even remember wut the heck i wrote on this blog... but i can tell its embarising. UGH!!! X(
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walked for three hours non stop, had fun with the birds today >w< HaHa  :3

Why Am I Grounded?

I was suppose to be looking out for my moms package since i missed it on friday, but instead i went out.... my mom is (dont know how much) angry and wont talk to me :O my bro is being a dumbass saying hes disapointed in me but hes the one who snitched me out XP (im going to remember this u putang ina!!!) but i guess its my fault for not telling her that i went out instead, but if i did, wouldnt she tell me to stay? i dont know, i dont know. it was worth it thoug. i dont even know why im grounded, but it was all worth it haha.
woke up at 9 and my friend called, she really wanted to hang out with me but i said no, so she kept on talking and talking, haha, but i dont mind, i owe her... i guesse... or probally i do >_< haha. went out to meet Flippy and had a... fun time >_< hahaha.... i like eating that chicken thingy XD lol, its very tasty >w< and the bubble tea was awsome. came home and wanted to play xbox with my bro, but he ruined the disk Skyrim by putting peanutbutter on it xD haha but i guess it was okay since i have to study for that stupid regents tommorow
DIE you S-T-U-P-I-D geanipig!!!
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 RANDOM PIC >w< HaHaHa

Crying Does Help

crying really does help... just to cry your feelings out... its hard for me to talk to people about my feelings, about me, wuts going on, how im doing, how i really feel (yes, i know i said it twice). i try but i just cant. and it doesnt even seem like im even trying but i am... im sorry... but this stupid me just dont like to show how i really feel, im just a fake, a phoney girl. 

i dont talk bc i dont want to complain about something so stupid, something so small, so i just make myself all weird, all different so that wenever someone ask me how im really feeling and stuff i just talk about all the things that doesnt really bother me, but when i talk about it it suddenly does bothers me so im not technally lying. i try not to lie... but it just comes out so smoothly, i just cant stop, im sorry. i wish i could have someone to talk to... someone to really talk about wuts going in my head, how im really feeling in my heart... but the only way that could happen is if your a total stranger to me and  have no connections in my real life... but then once you know about me, i stop bc u know me too much... i dont really want to be known too much, i rtther know the other person more than that person knows me, but all people wants it to know me, how i really am (dont want to explain) and stuff... all i seem to do is iritate people... i cant seem to make people really happy, it seems as if all the people around me PRETENDS that their having a good time when they really dont... i dont know... thats just how i feel... people thinks that im pretending to have a good time when i actually am (sometimes) i try to be happy, since me being all sad and stuff makes people mad and stuff. 

i just really want to be trully happy, to trully have fun, to not worry, to not care if things goes wrong

im sorry if this deonst make sense, but this is just how i feel...

Happy Fathers Day

So today i fathers day as you know it and i didnt get to see him today. But I dont really care. He finally told me were he was and wut he was doing and stuff but im not sure if i belive him. Sorry.
So today i really wanted to talk to Flippy, but we didnt really have a conversation. Just doing some random stuff, i guess its my fault.